Bad Or Alive The Need To Feeling Somthing, The Need To Feel Alive? Addictive And Bad Behavior?

The need to feeling somthing, the need to feel alive? addictive and bad behavior? - bad or alive

Is there a way to overcome this kind of behavior and to feel good every day. I have no specific drug, but my life still revolves around activities that give me juice and I suffer symptoms of dependence without a specific function. It's just my personality and behavior are not the best sometimes, and I want to enjoy a nice person Nice happy life. What need (known these feelings feel alive) and how do I fix this myself? The idea that can read books, that in any personal experiences to help you. I'm all ears. Thank you in advance for the help.